-i've dyed some of my hair white. it's not the light blonde i called "white" last year when i attempted. it's like lightning. so that's good. -i proved everyone wrong, and even surprised myself in the end. -success, as they say and as i've learned, is the best revenge. -raven is a lesbian now. -i realized that i've been off speed since august. i didn't know it then, but it was the closest thing to real madness i've ever felt. i cry sometimes when i think about those months. drug addiction is no joke. i'm just thankful i got out before it was too late. -and with that, the only drug i'll ever do from now on is weed. -howl's moving castle is my new obsession. the sandman obsession needs a break. -i still can't seem to get out of the all black color scheme i've got going on. not that i'm trying to get over it. but hey.